If you don’t believe those dove campaigns then here it from a model
It’s always a struggle
There’s never enough makeup
There’s never enough hair products
There’s never enough clothing
There’s never enough shoes
There’s never enough dieting
Perfection is nothing to want
It is something to despise
It is unattainable and unforgettable
It is only temptress you will never seduce
So don’t try to be perfect, try to be content
try to be happy
try to love yourself
As long as you keep chasing perfection
You won’t know what any of those things mean…..
So, I’m starting a new glam transformation, I’m changing my look and enhancing some great features I never thought I had. I’m looking at myself in a new form of beauty and part of that beauty is changing what is on the inside as well.
Part one is honesty.
1) I get bored with things easily. I like new things and that doesn’t exclude relationships. I’ve always moved to the next when I became uninterested. This time however I’ve found someone that I want to keep in my life and I’m afraid of becoming uninterested. Usually I wouldn’t care but I actually love him.
2) I’ve always tried to be someone I wasn’t because of insecurity. I’m tired of playing the sad insecurity song and I’m proud of the person that I am.
3) I’m afraid of becoming my sister or my mom and the more I fret over it, the more I do become them. We do resemble our blood but we can make a choice of whether we become them. I’ve said that for years and now I’m finally believing it.
Over my two days off, I’ve done more work than I do during 5 days of work(don’t get concerned, I have a really boring job). I rearranged my house after an old roommate took all of his things out, I cleaned everything, and sold some old things I no longer need. After all the madness, I sat down and came to the conclusion that I’ve finally grown up. Yes for the last 2 years, I haven’t lived with my parents and I’ve been paying my bills but that doesn’t necessarily mean you’ve grown up. You can own a house, have kids, have a good paying job, pay bills, etc. but still be immature. I took me a long time to realize that being an adult means being responsible. Yes everyone loves hanging out with their friends but when you decide to decline drinks in order to finish an assignment instead of cramming it in before the night is over then congrats, you’ve grown up.
I say all of this because I’m starting to take responsibility for my school work, my home, and my life. Moving to Oregon was the best decision I’ve ever made because it changed me as a person. I still have fun like any other 21 year old but I’m looking out for the long term goal and not just what makes me happy in the moment. I don’t miss being hung over and going into work. I don’t miss procrastinating and having to stay up all night to finish my homework. If it’s your thing and you’re good at it, by all means go for it but it’s not for me.